| In pain (but this is positive!) |
[01 Nov 2007|10:56am] |
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Entakt |
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Went to Ashtanga class yesterday evening - dear Lord, that was hard! One and a half hour of the torture that my body will thank me for very soon. Today I woke up in pain, and the worst is with my back, which means that I've really gone too far with sitting too much and no exercising. I hope that I won't stop doing yoga again, as I did so many times before (reminds me of my friend who constantly quits smoking).
Discovered a good Danish band (Entakt), they sound different, they write wonderful lyrics and the singer's got amazing voice. And (thank God!) they sing in Danish! I am so tired of many musicians that do it in English (without even being good at it!). Looking forward to get a chance to see Entakt live.
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| What the coming days (should) consist of... |
[25 Oct 2007|12:52pm] |
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Roisin Murphy - Overpowered |
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8 hours sleep
yoga
long walks
work
reading books
following the current elections
library project
checking out the new exhibitions
cinema at least two times a week
making "autumn dishes" (season for root vegetables)
drinking chai
going more out in the evening
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[23 Oct 2007|10:11am] |
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Jorane |
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I have difficulties to find a proper female magazine that will satisfy all my needs. There are couple of them in Denmark that are readable, but nothing that makes me wanna buy them each month (not to say impatiently wait for them!) and go "wow" about the articles and their monthly suggestions when it comes to music, books or movies. Only couple of them ever mention/write about exhibitions or theatre. Recently I got two numbers of Croatian Elle and I was positively surprised. There was something to read, there was something to see, and they definitely suggested some music and movies that I feel like cheking out. But how am I to get Croatian Elle next time, unless there is somebody travelling to Cro accidentaly? Sad, sad...
Sunday I went to cinema and watched two movies (spent more than four hours there!). Michael Clayton and Eastern Promises. Usually I am not a huge fan of Viggo Mortensen (so overhyped!), but I think that Cronenberg gets the best out of that man. He was simply amazing! The movie itself of course, but I am not surprised.
Last night I went to visit my sister, who recently became mother for the second time. Little baby girl is so lovely and looks pretty much as Filippa (her first child) when she was born, only darker hair. I wonder what she grows inot one day. Filippa is extremely jealous, it was almost funny to watch.
Apart from that, I've been so lazy lately. So many things I have to do, even more things I'd like to do. But something doesn't let me. As if I am sleeping throughout the day, never really waking up.
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| An important date |
[14 Oct 2007|04:46pm] |
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The Knife - Marble House |
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On this day twelve years ago, I met one of the most important persons in my life: Mr Tomsky. Ever since the number 1410 has meant a lot to me and became a symbol for many things and a part of every password I've ever used. We met at the club/bar Kransnapolsky which once was a cool place for cool people, but which today is really a trashy place that I only still fancy because it stands out as something special in my memories.
I went for a walk downtown and saw that COS finally opened. And I already spotted a great bag that I simply have to buy and use for my new laptop (special care of MacBook!).
Tonight: dinner at Les trois cochons, looking forward.
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| Lost and found |
[10 Oct 2007|11:23am] |
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Nouvelle Vague |
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Long time no see. I completely forgot about this blog. I guess I am not that much into blogs anyway. After being away for so long time, and updating myself with what has happened here meanwhile, I find it impressing to see that Evalien and Yhanick were so active all the time, keeping my Livejournal friend blogs alive. So the question is: Where in the world do you find the inspiration - I envy you so!!!
Listening to Nouvelle Vague: Bande à part
So what is going on in my life? I moved to another flat, really huge one and very central in my favorite part of the city. When I say huge, I mean huge like, there is a billiards (pool?) in the living room and there is american kitchen. And enormous dinner table for 12 people eating comfortably with lots of space for the food in the middle, not disturbing any body's plates. Long ago, that living room used to be 4 rooms, but the the walls were removed in order to make a huge room out of the space, because Maersk had their sewing ladies here back in 1970s, sewing uniforms for the company - how cute!
Also, I bought MacBook, so I said goodbye to annoying PC that stood for everything I hate and I am not :)
Good morning to my new lifestyle.
I read an amazing book just recently which I definitely have to recommend to all: Wally Lamb's "I know this much is true". And also (but who hasn't read it yet?) Khaled Hosseini's "The Kite Runner" - nothing recently touched my soul like that book.
Hey friends, where are you and how are you doing?
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| Night |
[27 Feb 2007|10:45pm] |
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How can you sleep with my heart so loud???
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| Here comes the rain again... |
[15 Dec 2006|12:32pm] |
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Mikael Simpson - De ti skud |
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For many years now I've hated the Danish weather, specially from November to April. Too much rain and too much slush (and very little snow!). I always throw couple of shoes or boots in the garbage beacuse they are of no use after one Danish winter. This time i decided to invest in a pair of Ilse Jacobsen rubber boots (yes, 125$!), but I still manage to look cool and I can walk in the streets filled with rain (and slush!).
Ilse Jacobsen
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| Poem of the day |
[15 Dec 2006|12:19pm] |
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Trentemøller |
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WHO HAS SEEN THE WIND ? BY: CHRISTINA ROSSETTI
Who has seen the wind? Neither I nor you: But when the leaves hang trembling The wind is passing thro'
Who has seen the wind? Neither you nor I: But when the trees bow down their heads The wind is passing by.
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| Nostalgia |
[14 Dec 2006|01:20pm] |
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I try to close my eyes, but I'm afraid of the dark
I see you everywhere
I see you everywhere
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| "Life is unfair. Kill yourself or get over it!" |
[20 Jun 2006|11:45am] |
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Ilham - The Voice of Iraq |
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I've tried it before, but you never get used to such things. To lose somebody you love. In the worst, most definite way, with no chances of getting back. I've tried it with Natasha when I was only 16. It was the first and the most shocking loss. There were some other ones meanwhile, never as shocking as that one.
Some days ago I met Maja, common friend of me and my friend Tove. The coincidence of our running into each other on the exactly that day was so extreme, it made me believe we were sent to each other by angels. She tried to reach me all day long (on the old cell phone) only to let me know that Tove died. But she couldn't, of course, because the number is in no use anymore. On the other hand I took the bus I never take, only because Agata was freezing and we decided to take 6A two stops and that's where and how I met Maja. And heard the disturbing news I didn't want to hear.
Tove was my first Danish friend. I met her in january 1993. and we've been close friends ever since. So many memories popping up in my head these days.
Her laughter.
Her huge ring on the right hand.
Her small art pieces.
The way she's analyzing the paintings on the exhibition.
Her French, which she loved to speak.
Her jazz, her Bach, her African music.
The way she would put her hair behind her ear.
The way she would smile saying "Hey Monika!"
All gone.
Too gone.
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| Crazy Japan |
[10 Jun 2006|11:02pm] |
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[10 Jun 2006|12:46pm] |
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Apparat - Silizium |
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why couldn't a mosque in denmark look like this? placed somewhere in jutland for instance to attrack tourists?
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| Walking Zombie |
[06 Jun 2006|04:37pm] |
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Marissa Nadler - Ballads of Living and Dying |
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Had wonderful dinner at Egebjerg last night.
Got caught by rain on the way home.
Dropped by 7-eleven and bought the new issue of Cover magazine (the only Danish fashion magazine that look down on women - here you won't find recommendations for movies a la Bridget Jones or reviews for Shakira's latest cd). Well, some bad/annoying features like "What has Kate F**g Moss bought this week and which part of her body has Paris Hilton shown this time" are not to be avoided here neither, but what the heck - I just skip those pages. Why would I be interested in how many grams of Kate has sniffed or who is copying her newest trend?
Went to bed at 2am, utterly tired, but couldn't fall asleep. I hate insomnia!
Had to take a sleeping pill and managed to fall asleep around 6 am, got up at 1 pm and feel like shit.
Spent the day so far reading Cover, did feet massage and got showered.
Now to the Churchyard and then dinner at Knud (father of our friend Jonas who died 5 years ago).
Tempus fugax et irreparabile.
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| New sunglasses |
[02 Jun 2006|06:36pm] |
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Calla - Scavengers |
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Went out for a walk and bought new sunglasses. I think they make me look great, because they hide half of my face :D
Now I can go around with dark circles under the eyes, nobody will notice! Coffee on Østerbro (almost 5 euro, I hate this city).
Sandwich with mozarella, tomatoes and pesto at Kulinaris.
My hair is finally long enough so I can have it in a tiny ponytail.
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| Where have they been? |
[02 Jun 2006|01:11pm] |
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Fairuz - Modern Fairuz |
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Went to bed late, got up late. Have pain in my back. T made breakfast and coffee. This weekend there is Pinsekarneval in Cph. I got email from Liv who invited me to see her somewhere on the pedestrian street dancing with her group in costumes - looking forward (I missed it last year).
Talked to Vesna about going to cinema to watch Oldboy, but it turned out they don't show it anymore in Grand, so I have to see the late show in Gloria, if I want to see it at all. Damn. I bought a wonderful coat from Full Circle the other day, but still haven't had it on. It costed me 230 euro, but I don't regret it at all, I fell for it already when I saw it in the window in Münchhausen.
These days
Books I'm reading:
The Shadow of the Wind
Arkitektur DK
Music I'm listening to:
Band of Horses
Azure Ray
Boards of Canada
Fairuz
Sigur Ros
Clothes I'm wearing:
Tight black jeans from Lee
Different scarfs
Black shirts
Pointy high heel shoes
Dreams I'm dreaming
Walking through New York
Shopping in New York
Waking up in New York
Food I'm eating
Ceasar salat
Sandwich with chicken and homemade curry dressing from Salonen
Smoothies
Fresh made juices
Strawberries ad libitum
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| Desperate Librarian |
[01 Jun 2006|03:44pm] |
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Ladytron |
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I was in Grand yesterday to see The Squid and the Whale and I really liked it. I found all carachters extremely unpleasant, yet I couldn't really dislike any of them. The music was great and it was kind of a money that makes you feel good for many hours after watching it.
Afterwards lunch at Salonen, Sasha joined later on and we had a long walk through the busy pedestrian street, doing window shopping for at least one and a half hour. Spoiled ourselves with a fresh juice from Joe and the Juice (I had my favorite with passion fruit, apples and pinneaple). Walked all the way home, through theand down by the lakes and spent night in bed watching Without a Trace, several episodes.
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| Hotel Fox |
[30 May 2006|11:37pm] |
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Ok, this must be my favorite, after a very long analysis.
I would though remove that black thing hanging over there and the wall with the window is ugly. With this painting on the wall, pictures are unnecessery.
About the room and the designer:
Re-interpreting tradition. Simone is a great traveller and also loves the nomad life so he is happy to be working on hotel rooms that he himself would like to stay in and hopes too that his guests will wake up in them with a smile in the mornings. “This room is my own interpretation of traditional Japan seen with a modern western eye. I wanted to give a sense of freshness, a contemporary young design style, but minimal and peaceful as in the Japan of the past.”
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| Desperate housewife |
[30 May 2006|09:14pm] |
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Plaid |
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Still haven't seen The Squid and the Whale, something came up again.
Instead, I've been out shopping, having tea at Circus and thai on the bench in Elmegade.
One of the days I will go out for dinner at Fox Kitchen (placed in a really cozy hotel in Copenhagen, with crazy rooms).
Watched two last episodes of Desperate Housewives and now I'll just read a book and relax.
So lazy.
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| Yesterday |
[29 May 2006|10:29am] |
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Boards of Canada - Music has the Right to Children |
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Trouble with sleeping because of the coughing. But I had a great day. Met up with Tom and Mindy (his friend from New York) for lunch at FrisørSalonen (where else?!). Then a walk in the rain all the way to Statens Museum for Kunst, where we saw the exhibition French Master Drawings. The usual stuff: Picasso, Matisse, Rodin etc. but I was the most impressed by certain drawings by Forain (see below), Guys and Vuillard. Pity they are renovating the building, which means two of the floors were closed yesterday, but I hope Mindy had good time with us anyway.
Long coffee break at Props. On the way there Tom discovered the had a hole in his right shoe, so his sock and foot got all soaked. He sat at Props with one shoe on and one bare foot. Bloody camera battery was "exhausted", so I couldn't take a picture of that funny pair of feet under the table - one all dressed up and another completely naked.
Afterwards I went to cinema with Martin to see Haneke's Caché:
with Daniel Auteuil and Juliette Binoche. Good, claustrophobic and uncanny as always. So many other movies on my list waiting to be watched (Oldboy, Paradise Now, The Squid and the Whale, L'Enfant, Crossing the Bridge, Proposition etc.).
Anyway, time for breakfast.
Rain again.
It's another manic monday.
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| Still ill |
[26 May 2006|11:51am] |
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Vas - In the Garden of Souls |
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Still coughing, not really going anywhere or doing anything.
The weather is not on my side anyway.
This is how it's gonna be the next days, and we are in the end of May, man!
Yesterday I did nothing but being lazy and relaxing at home. Downloaded and saw the two last episodes of Lost and that was a highlight of the day. Pathetic. Geez, I am looking forward to fly to Zagreb, to finally get some sun and summer.
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| I rule! |
[23 May 2006|06:42pm] |
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Have no idea why I was so nervous about the exam, it turned out I was really great! Finally summer yeaaah.
Well, it is still almost winter here. Cold, rain, extremly windy and dim.
But what the heck, I feel great.
Had tasty dinner and wonderful Malbec from Argentina (of course) and now I make plans for the coming days:
Exhibions - there are so many!
Movies: Oldboy first of all - it's a must!
Concerts: Isobel Campbell tonight at Vega (with Russell and Trine)
Reading: Middlesex, finally - Eric recommended it so long time ago!
Music: so many bought cds that I haven't had time to listen to properly!
People: so many I haven't seen for long time.
Photography: have to try out my new camera that arrived from Nikon a week ago.
And at last: to get ready for my Balkan trip!
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| Traffic sign |
[21 May 2006|04:26pm] |
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Calla - Scavengers |
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I love this traffic sign.
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| On a ride with band of horses |
[20 May 2006|09:56pm] |
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Band of Horses |
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Finally it came, long awaited cd with Band of Horses and I took a ride to Roskilde and Helsingør in rainy weather, listening to the cd loudly and even enjoying the rain. Great combination: rain car Band of Horses.
Ultimately, the band's most winning trait is its delicate balance of elements-- between gloom and promise, quiet and loud, epic and ordinary, familiar and new, direct and elliptical, artist and listener. Each of these aspects makes the others sound stronger and more complex, making Everything All the Time an album that's easy to get lost in and even easier to love. (Pitchforkmedia)
Weird how many times I've been to Roskilde, but never went to see Domkirke (cathedral). I didn't find it so interesting inside, but it looks good from the outside. There is a tradition for the royal funerals there. But today I found a flea market behind the church, and I spent more time on buying different things (those I need and those I buy only because I can't help buying). Everything you can manage to put into a cardboard box for 20 kr (2.5 euros).
 
Domkirke in Roskilde
We also visited Vikingemuseet, very grey place seen from the outside, half of it is in wooden houses with some very colourful boats as a contrast. I never really realized why the entrance costed me 80 kr (11 euros) - maybe I don't appreciate the wooden work enough haha.
 
From Roskilde we drove half an hour north to Helsingør (Elsinore) in order to visit Kronborg (also embaressing never being inide although I've been living her since 1992). I had no idea there were catacombs in there and I had no idea it was so dark inside, but I got in and as it began to be narrower and narrower and then darker and darker, I really began to feel claustrophobic - hopefully it was smaller area that I feared, so we got out quit fast (there was no way back once you got there, only arrows to follow.
 
Hungry and thirsty and tired we got back to Copenhagen and settled down at Frisørsalonen, my favorite cafe. As if they asked me for music, they played Tom Waits, Bonnie Prince Billy, Neko Case, Pixies, dEUS etc. Read the new number of Cover while drinking coffee and waiting for food. It was still raining outside.
 
Coffee at Frisørsalonen Tom smoking and drinking coffee
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| From Coupling |
[19 May 2006|01:14am] |
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"No, I don't talk to women when they're emotional. They're allowed to slap you."
Steve: What over the phone?
"She'll remember for the next time. Women remember Steve. It's like they've got minds of their own."
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| Red wine at midnight |
[18 May 2006|11:55pm] |
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Feist |
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Drinking Cabernet Sauvignon, listening to Feist, chatting with a friend about Giro d'Italia.
Horrible, horrible weather today. Rain and really windy, I am getting depressed - take me out of here!
Last night tripple concert, the best part was with Okkervil River.
Met ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) youllstillbe half an hour before the gig, Martin came a bit later and I ran randomly into Djordje, a friend of mine from Montenegro. We often end up at the same concerts :)
Today, the weather made me stay at home almost all day long. Went to SuperBest to buy some wine, chese and bread, then rented a movie in Play Time Video (Veronica Guerin) and that is about it. Such a lazy and wasted day.
But it's been really great to meet Russell, love meeting new people and he was so nice and easy to talk to. We might go and listen to Isobel together next week. Well, let's see.
Now it's time to bed.
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| Missing |
[16 May 2006|09:35pm] |
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Marissa Nadler |
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Cold cold tuesday.
Decided to drop one exam and wait til next spring with delivering.
Tomorrow Okkervil River and Neko Case.
Long for warm climate.
Cocktails.
Making love out in the nature.
Swimming in a lake surrounded by the mountains.
Holding Tanja's hand.
Singing while driving in the car through Banjaluka's alleys.
Sleeping tight in my grandmother's house.
Laying in the grass reading books.
The scent of summer...
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| What ever happened with the Spring |
[15 May 2006|09:54pm] |
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Maria Taylor |
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I'm so tired of the wind, of low temperatures, of never-ending Winter! Trine left for Norway this morning and told me it is snowing in Tromsø (???). Well, in a way I should be happy about it, because I don't have to have any regrets being inside because of the paper that I have to write - deadline in 7-8 days, and I haven't even started.
Evalien sent me a pic that she took of Tom and me last thursday when we took them to Christiania.
Me and Tom on Christiania
I am so glad to have met her, an amazing girl, with original and recognizable style. It was fun to see that she bought a rain coat in a souvenir shop, that wewaring anywhere else but here may seem extremely cool. I hope she will send me a pic, so I can post it here.
I discovered an interesting site (for those of you who are nostalgic or simply like retro).
Wednesday evening a concert with Neko Case and possibly Okkervil River, since there is a water damage at Huset, where they were supposed to play the very same evening.
I am still obsessed with Marissa Nadler, who is on tour in Europe, but of course not coming to this bloody country.
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[13 May 2006|10:17pm] |
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Ladytron |
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I was surfing some photographs about Bosnia and found this one:
I find it so funny, I simply had to post it here. Amazing!
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[13 May 2006|02:15pm] |
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Slowdive |
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The sunshine girl is sleeping
She falls and dreams alone
And me I am her dagger
To numb to feel her pain
The world is full of noise yeah
I hear it all the time
And me I am your dagger
You know I am your world
I thought I heard you whisper
It happens all the time
I thought I heard you whisper
It happens all the time
She whispers while I'm sleeping
I love you when you smile
I didn't really lose you
I just lost it for a while
The world is full of noise yeah
I hear it all the time
You know I am your dagger
You know I am your wound
I thought I heard you whisper
It happens all the time
I thought I heard you whisper
It happens all the time
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| With Evalien in Copenhagen |
[12 May 2006|01:36pm] |
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Marissa Nadler, again and again |
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So I'm having evalien here for a visit. And it's embaressing to find out I never knew how to pronounce her name properly! It turned out I called her something that wasn't her name - hope I'm forgiven. When I met her at Props, she was already sitting together with Karina and Tom. It was so weird to see her right in front of me. Somebody you feel you know quite well, yet never seen in your life before. But we had pleasant time all day and in the evening (she even made me drink beer - first Hoegaarden and then Leffe - although I am not fond of beer at all, I have it 5-6 times a year the most).
Funny how I always end up some weird places in Copenhagen when being a guide - usually places I go to very seldom. Like Christiania for instance. And I wonder each time why I don't come there some more often - such a lovely place.
Looking forward to see her again today (right now she's walking around with Karina discovering the city on her own and playing tourists).
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| About Helene |
[15 Apr 2006|06:31pm] |
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"Schjerfbeck was an extremely slow painter. When she began painting, the first brushstrokes would show whether the mood was right. If not, she would wait for a better day. When she eventually returned to the canvas weeks later, she would often wash off everything she had painted earlier. Sometimes she scrubbed the canvas until it lost its sheen and became worn and fragile – as fragile as the little girl in the picture.
The girl sat for Schjerfbeck on a dark November day. In Schjerfbeck's eyes, she was as radiant as a small yellow moon in the darkness. The girl was free to pose as she pleased, yet her hands look uncomfortable crossed as they are – only adding to the discomfort of her stiff Sunday frock.
Although the solitary figure was a delight to Schjerfbeck, painting her became an increasing strain. Schjerfbeck was unable to take pleasure in her work – the likeness was never good enough. How could anyone possibly bother looking at such an unworthy effort? "
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| What I've learned... |
[01 Apr 2006|02:36pm] |
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Colder - Heat |
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I've learned-
that we don't have to change friends if we
understand that friends change.
I've learned-
that no matter how good a friend is,
they're going to hurt you every once in a while
and you must forgive them for that.
I've learned-
that true friendship continues to grow,
even over the longest distance.
Same goes for true love.
I've learned-
that we are responsible for what we do,
no matter how we feel.
I've learned-
that either you control your attitude
or it controls you.
I've learned-
that sometimes when I'm angry
I have the right to be angry,
but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel
I've learned-
that it isn't always enough to be forgiven by
others.
Sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself.
I've learned-
that our background and circumstances
may have influenced who we are,
but we are responsible for
who we become.
I've learned-
that just because two people argue,
it doesn't mean they don't love each other
And just because they don't argue,
it doesn't mean they do.
I've learned-
that two people can look at the exact same thing
and see something totally...different.
I've learned-
that life can be changed in a matter of
seconds by people who don't even know us.
I've learned –
that learning to forgive takes practice
I've learned –
that it's hard to determine where to draw the line
between being nice and
not hurting people's feelings and standing
up for what you believe.
I've learned –
that broken hearts and broken relationships
are hard to mend but that
doesn't mean you shouldn't try to mend them.
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| Why do we always believe that the life is somewhere else? |
[02 Mar 2006|12:48am] |
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Ai Phoenix |
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"Life is a hospital where every patient is possessed by a desire to change beds. This one wants to suffer in front of the stove, and that one believes he'll feel better near the window. It always seems to me that I will always be well there where I am not, and the question of changing this matter I discuss at no cease with my soul." -Charles Baudelaire
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| A song about me |
[08 Jan 2006|01:11pm] |
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I can be an asshole of the grandest kind
I can withhold like it's going out of style
I can be the moodiest baby and you've never met anyone
who is as negative as I am sometimes
I am the wisest woman you've ever met.
I am the kindest soul with whom you've connected.
I have the bravest heart that you've ever seen
And you've never met anyone
Who's as positive as I am sometimes.
You see everything, you see every part
You see all my light and you love my dark
You dig everything of which I'm ashamed
There's not anything to which you can't relate
And you're still here
I blame everyone else, not my own partaking
My passive-aggressiveness can be devastating
I'm terrified and mistrusting
And you've never met anyone as,
As closed down as I am sometimes.
You see everything, you see every part
You see all my light and you love my dark
You dig everything of which I'm ashamed
There's not anything to which you can't relate
And you're still here
What I resist, persists, and speaks louder than I know
What I resist, you love, no matter how low or high I go
I'm the funniest woman you've ever known.
I am the dullest woman you've ever known.
I'm the most gorgeous woman you've ever known
And you've never met anyone as, as everything as I am sometimes.
You see everything, you see every part
You see all my light and you love my dark
You dig everything of which I'm ashamed
There's not anything to which you can't relate
And you're still here
And you're still here
And you're still here...
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| Old love haunts me in the morning |
[22 Dec 2005|08:07pm] |
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Marissa Nadler - Fifty Five Leaves |
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Not so easy to keep up with this thing. I write another journal, you know the old fashioned one (in many ways I'm so old fashioned, still prefer the real letters than e-mail, love the feeling of paper under my fingertips and my friends' handwriting that makes me feel closer to the one who writes to me). On the other hand, I don't really think I'm missed here when I make long breaks.
So what is going on in my life right now? I just passed two exams. Getting ready for the next two ones in January. Got back to Yahoo messenger, which means I chat some more with Eric and that feels good. We can have the funniest conversations ever and something I wonder how will our meeting be, when we get together at some point in the future: lots of wine, good music and going for a ride?
Apart from that I am spending more and more time with Martin and I love the way he makes me feel like. I'm so thankful that I found some interesting people in the school, it makes it much easier to stand the hard time I'm having there from time to time. Began to talk a lot with a girl called Marie, who reminds me of myself quite a lot - sometimes it's scary. I'm not so used to hanging around with girls, so this is quite interesting.
I was rather impressed with Nicole Krauss' "History of Love" which I warmly recommend to everybody. Right now I'm reading Zafon's "The Shadow of the Wind", which is something completely else, but I truly enjoy it. I am happy that I can find time to read fine litterature, since I am so busy with school project.
Here is one of my favorite videos right now - hope that some of you will enjoy it! Now that I mention music and video, I have to write that I fell in love with Marissa Nadler - thanks Morten! He told me that he had a song for me, that it was very "Monika-like" and he was (once again) 100% right. So that is mainly what I've been listening to lately.
Saturday - Christmas Eve. Will spend some days 100 km north of Copenhagen in the family cottage. Mmm, I wonder what presents I will get. I wish for myself lots of music and books, of course. In that way I never change - give me the books and cds/vinyls and I'm satisfied. Danes have this strange tradition to make a long list of things they want to get for Christmas or birthday which they give to the family and friends who then pick the stuff from the list and buy them as presents, so in general they never really get surprised. I try to avoid such things. It is always fun to see what people can think of buying to me - how they see me, what they think would be good for me, how well they know me... Well, let's see how it's gonna be this year.
The cottage! It's bigger than what's seen here! There are four big rooms inside + this glass room.
Inside the glass room where we usually have breakfast in the Spring or in the Summer.
The road right in front of the cottage (and me)
The sand beach near the cottage (and me again)
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| Back to Livejournal |
[12 Nov 2005|10:10am] |
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Azure Ray - We are mise |
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Had no internet for 4-5 days. And no telephone. How could I ever have lived without internet???
Went to cinema twice and saw two amazing movies. The first one is by Ki-duk Kim: Spring, Sommer, Fall, Winter... and Spring.
Beautiful movie, very poetic, consisting of five stories, with not much dialog. Lust awakens the desire to possess. And that awakens the intent to murder.
The other one I saw last night, new Cronenberg movie: History of Violence. Well, I've got that weakness for Cronenberg, but I really think the movie was good. Even with Viggo Mortensen in the main role, I'm not really fond of him.
Saw CocoRosie last sunday, it was real good, athough there were songs that my ears simply couldn't bear.
Apart from that, nothing much going on in my life. Now I'm going to read what you've been up to.
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| Rainy morning |
[03 Nov 2005|09:50am] |
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Beth Gibbons |
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November morning, with rain and wind. I decided to stay home and read instead of going to the school. It is impossible to ride the bike in this weather and I hate Copenhagen trains, there is always something wrong with them and they are always incredibly late. It takes me 50 min to get to the school by public transport and 25 min cycling.
Yesterday I went to the cobbler to pick up my shoes. New sole little less than 30 euros!!! I mean... Oh my God! I've seen new shoes here for that money. I've seen exclusive shoes for that money last year in Bosnia. One would believe they earned millions with those prices. Well, at least I have to admit they did a great job and those are my favorite shoes.
I am still hooked on jogging. Yesterday I was in Fælledparken to run and the colours became even warmer. Many leaves on the ground kind of form a huge carpet with brown and yellow colours and since there still are many leaves on the trees, it feels like walking (in my case jogging) through a brown-yellowish tunnel. It took my breath away, I wanted to disappear in those colours.
Nearby, at the cemetery, the trees even have red leaves which make them look even more beautiful. I took a long walk through it, and enjoyed it fully. This is how it looks like:
And now back to thesaurus construction. I just finished my second cup of coffee today. It's still raining. It's still dim. It's only a beginning of November...
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| Please don't confront me with my failures, I have not forgotten them |
[28 Oct 2005|09:16pm] |
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Royksopp - What else is therè? |
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This will make you laugh
I staked my dreams on you
This will make you laugh
They never did come true
I took a chance on the one romance
and woved it couldn't miss
But I should have known
to never judge
a heart by a kiss.
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[25 Oct 2005|06:26pm] |
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Not much going on here. Been busy writing a paper - had deadline yesterday. Now dealing with another interesting book (I want so badly to move to USA or UK or Australia or New Zealand in order to learn English properly. It is so hard to read specialized litterature when my English is so poor.
Interesting stuff, huh? Well, it actually is. Although I'd rather read this:
I spent lot of time watching movies last days (El Bola, Million Dollar Baby, Pieces of April, Man on Fire), but nothing beats Sophie Scholl - I adore german movies. Tonight I'll watch In America, before I go to bed.
Tomorrow White Stripes in Copenhagen, tonight rain and wind, wind and rain... I am so tired. And so boring. Delete me.
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| What the hell are you doing here??? |
[20 Oct 2005|09:19am] |
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Cocteau Twins - Pink Opaque |
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I'm glad that I wasn't a visitor of this toilet in Manchester the other day!
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| Things I miss |
[19 Oct 2005|06:29pm] |
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My Bloody Valentine |
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I just heard that the weather is getting worse from tomorrow. I am glad I was out jogging around the lakes today. It is a bit far from my home, usually I jog in the park. So I am happy I grabbed the last chance to do it.
Last night I dreamt about the winters in my home country. I don't remember when I last time saw a town covered in white. Something like this:
This is what I understand when somebody says winter. But here in Denmark there is hardly any snow - I miss it.
Not much interesting in my life these days. Studying (yick!) and being a bit anxious. Too much to read and two papers to deliever on Monday. Stress, stress, stress. Somebody save me!
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